2:21 A.M.

Henry came over Monday night.  He brought me a flower – a white rose with baby’s breath and all that.  We got high and then for a little bit we just layed [sic] and cuddled.  And then he touched me.  His hands all over me pressing and massaging.  And when he finally got to my breasts.  It felt so good.  So good to have his hands on me exploring my body.  Then we slowed down and rested for a while.  Then he wanted me to take a shower with him but I just couldn’t.  He seemed very irritated as well he should have – I know I would’ve been.  I’m just really shy about my own body and especially about looking at his.  I know I’ll only get over this fear by confronting it but I’m not ready yet.  I’m not even ready to admit my real reason to someone else.  I told him that showering with someone was a really intimate and personal thing and that even though I should be because we had already shared quite a bit, I wasn’t ready.  Which, actually  sort of is true.

So he told me to take off my clothes.  I complied and layed [sic] down on the bed.  I could hear him removing his garments and got excited.  He slid under the covers next to me and pressed his warm, naked body to mind.  His hands explored my body from behind until I turned onto my back so he could have more of me, so I could feel what he had to give me.  His hand found its way between my thighs and dipped into my wetness.  It was a relief to finally have something inside me.

[I haven't given myself over to him completely yet.  I'm afraid to become to dependent on him and he'll grow to resent me.  What's sad is I can see it happening – me suffocating him into running.  But I don't want to, I just get so scared that I'll be alone.  I haven't come with him yet because I think that would mean he's gotten inside me – to my soul – and will know how to hurt me.]

He pushed his fingers deep into my cunt and twisted and turned his and so I could feel his power.  While his fingers were inside me, I reached down to my clit.  Everything was so wet and hot.  He licked at me and then pushed his cock into me.  Oh my god.  I told him to talk to me.  He said he felt so good inside me, that he wanted to get deeper.  I could barely talk but to swear to god I had never felt that way.  And I hadn’t.  Maybe it was the pot but I don’t really care because it felt so damn good.  The whole time I kept thinking about how huge he felt inside me, so big filled me up.  I could have died at that moment a very satisfied woman.  I got the usual pangs to tell him I love him but held out once again.

Tags: come fun, Diary, mmm pussy, yummy cock

Categories: Diary

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