I had lots of dreams that I can remember. Maybe it’s the food. Perhaps it’s the pot, could be my time of the month.

One – I was in school and every day we were getting driven to some observatory-type place by the beach – for the experience. Our driver was Henry who I talked to for a few days – staying in the front seat (we were driven in a van) to talk to him instead of doing what I was supposed to be doing. One time we went at night and I was looking out the windows at how pretty it was. Henry told me to find the moon but I had to lean my whole body out the window to see it (and it was still blocked by trees). So Henry wanted to see too so he leaned out the window also – sort of on top of me (but I can remember no discomfort). We were looking and noting how pretty it was when I wrapped my arms around him from behind.  His tummy was squishy but I didn’t care.  For some time I just hugged him and he reciprocated after a while and suggested we walk down to the beach.  Everyone was very proud of me – I was too.

Two – Erica was visiting me and talking about college – going to Santa Barbara.  Anyway we were talking and she was still surprised that I did not want to have sex with her.  She asked me if I wanted to give her a friendly hug but it was somehow turned into a kiss.  And after one of her kisses I’m lost.  We had sex.  It was good and afterwards I think she left.

She hasn’t called back.  I think she was surprised that everything I wrote in that letter I meant but only if she received it well – she didn’t so I’ve moved on.

Three – I went to a private school (I was a little kid) and had to be careful about everything I did because the authorities were very quick to punish.  Then later, after I was older, we had to do a very intense exercise routine.  Maybe that was guilt for not working out yesterday.  But then I didn’t eat as much either.

I only have to work a short day today.  Then I’m gonna go work out then probably nothing.  Tomorrow night the guys are playing a party to which Beth and I are going.  I told Henry that I was going because Beth invited me but I know he would have.  He said he would’ve but I don’t think so.  He said he just found out yesterday so how was he supposed to invite me?  But I wonder if he actually wants me to go.  I should ask him today.  Beth says I should hug him, wish him good luck, and give him a kiss on the cheek.  Now, that does sound perfect but I just don’t know if I could do it or if he would go for it.  She also says I should just start kissing him and because he’s a guy he won’t say no – but I think he would – he’s different from other guys – he’s not sex crazed, starved, whatever.

Tags: Diary, fantasy, sexy?

Categories: Diary

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