April 24, 1991, 1:44am: A Diary Entry

Posted on January 1, 2010

Haven’t talked to Henry at all today – I think I’m going through withdrawl.  Beth and Maury are in big-time trouble – according to Beth – Maury’s too drugged to figure it out – and the end is near – be it for the relationship or Maury’s life or both.

I forgot to push play – what a dope I am.  I think I’ll drop the thing about the artichokes – I’m sure he’s tired of it.  I remember him saying he doesn’t like to be another notch on someone’s belt – that he doesn’t like the idea that he’s just one of the many.  So maybe it’s good that I said I was only 16 – which of course was the truth – because he thinks I’m clean now.  But of course I am.  I’ve had sex with I think six people – that’s hardly anything.  Jeremy (I can’t think of his last name), Erica, Amy, Marisol, Sally, Rachel.  Now, considering some people don’t even consider it actual sex with girls (though of course I do – ’cause it is), I haven’t been around all that much.  My one experience with males was not what I’d consider a success.  But, I am going to give them another chance (for their benefit – they couldn’t live without me) so I can be sure that it doesn’t always have to be that way.  Someone who’s been working on it for nine (that’s nine 9 IX) years! would surly be more adept than someone who had just began that very night.  I think that when I finally do have a sexual experience with a guy and it woks nicely (I know, my gerunds) then and only then will I feel truly devirginized.  I was wondering if that is even a word.  Oh well.  A prefix and suffix.  Yippee English.  Called for quotes today – the cheapest is $1280 a year.  That’s a lot o’ money.

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