1:37 pm

Last night went to Rocky Horror w/Kristen, Jenny Byrum, and Erica. Erica insisted on paying for me because, she said, chivalry is not dead. But she’s not a guy. Oh well. I went to R.T. yesterday around 5pm to talk to Erica and get some pizza. There were these people sitting at the big round table behind me who were talking about weirdos and stuff when Gene and I were sitting there. That was fine. Then Erica brought my pizza out to me and the people laughed real loud and started talking about her. I thought eventually they’d stop. But they kept going and I was getting angrier and angrier. Finally I turned around and said, “You can shut the fuck up any time now.” I didn’t even think about it, I just did it. So then they said something like they were impressed that I spoke, I flipped them off. I said that what other people do is none of their business. They said they had to look at them. I said, “What about you?” “He said, “What do I look like?” I said, “Scum, look like scum, are scum.” So then I stormed into the kitchen. Was in the office. Kathy yelled at me for dumping salt out and I left. Matt Almer gave me a ride home and I called Kristen. Then Erica called ’cause she got off work early. She came over and we kissed again the first time in almost two weeks. She wants to tell Juree to fuck off but I know she still loves her. Now she says everything’s up to me because I know how she fells but she doesn’t know how I feel. So everything’s up to me and I don’t know what to do. Last night I had two separate dreams about Erica. The first about sex–we were fooling around. I didn’t get satisfied enough. The second was at my mom’s house in her room on the bed. Erica was writing something on a drawing of a rose she had done. She was writing something to the effect of, I’ve waited 18 years to find someone like you. And it was for me. Then I got in a fight with my mother but that doesn’t count for much. So maybe I should take a chance. Maybe she really does like me a lot. I just have to find some way to tell her. I must like her, I think about her all the time. I’ll just have to say I’m gonna go for it. Anyway, at Rocky, we sat w/a seat between us but held hands. It’s incredible what a little touch can do when it’s forbidden. Just holding hands with her gets me kind of excited. Just got through watching “Fatal Attraction.” Very good movie. The weather is just great, can’t see very far. Thought I had to work at 3 but I don’t until 5. I have to work with Juree today. I’m really excited about that one. I don’t know if I should call Erica or not. If I want to why don’t I because I don’t want to play games.

Tags: Diary, mmm pussy, words count

Categories: Diary

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